Learning To Breathe

HAM- 24/7, 365, 366 on a leap year. No looking back.

mouth shut, he has been training diligently.
under the radar.

with a solid team of amazing individuals, also alone.
serenity.

will it pay off? is it too late?
only time will tell.

a lot of ground has been made up and to give less then 100% for the next 6 weeks would only be cutting himself short.

a new home, a new family.
temporary.

his body may ache, but his mind, his heart...will not let him quit again, EVER.

the comeback.

“Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him."
and show him my salvation.”

Phase I

i'm sorry.

i feel as over time i may have let a lot, if not all of you down. maybe it's been the recent days, weeks, or a month. but i know at some point i did. but most importantly i let myself down. i compromised who i am, let go of my mind and values. i let emotion get the best of me. it has been too much, and gone too far for too long.

please know i took a leave of absence from CFEP. as much as i've been told i'll be missed, or that it's my "home" i feel like a complete stranger at times. i can take the blame, perhaps some of it has been self-inflicted. but no one truly knows the whole truth, maybe no one will ever will. people just assume, but no one asks questions. i've heard things, yet no one says anything. and that's their choice.

decisions were made, and i felt they made my current situation worse. instead of progressing, i began to regress.

please i ask that you consider where i'm coming from, it may not make sense to anyone but i feel it will be the best for the long run. it may take a day, a week, or a month. just know i deemed that this decision was absolutely necessary for myself and my health. i wish things could go back the way they used to be, maybe they will, most likely they won't.

i've been replaced.

although i feel many of the things i love have been consumed, crossfit is something i really value, i truly have a passion for it, and will pursue. it may be at a globo gym, my garage, or perhaps i can wod with friends i've made at other gyms from time to time. just know i will not be coaching anywhere else, i will remain faithful.

Phase I begins now. 3.7.11.

i can only hope that the friendships, laughs, smiles, and relationships i made were real, that someday i will be forgiven, and that i will be welcomed back with open arms.

best of luck to you all, and hopefully, i'll be back soon.

take care and god bless.

The Calm

for many in the crossfit community who compete we're officially "in-season." many competitions are currently being held or upcoming. men and women find themselves getting ready, fine tuning their diets, no more cheat days, double wods are in full effect, begin making you're final preparation's
there's a storm on the horizon...


with the fittest games and southwest fitness throwdown coming up, it's time...
time for battle mode.
Battle Mode: some people have it some people don't. This is when the impossible becomes easy and UNBROKEN is all day!

time to gear up.

train hard.
-GT/The Pizza Boy

Reemerging

I keep stalling out
I just can't keep up
There's alarming doubt
Am I good enough?
But you keep coming around
to convince me
It's still far from over

i apologize for my lack of consistency.

for those of you who are close to me you know i've been growing as a human, as we all should go through trial and tribulation simply to be put thru the gauntlet to see how bad we want "it."
but i know that i've become so much stronger, and to most of you i owe i my success. thank you for sticking with me, for your patience, prayers and most of all your friendship. once you're completely broken down and stripped of what you know, and had, that's when you can really see how much you depend on others, and how you can always count on them.
i've grown spiritually, and i'm so thankful.
it's taken so much away from my training, and coaching. last week i had to sit down and contemplate if i would be able to compete in the Southwest Fitness Throwdown. expecting questions and ridicule, i was immediately lifted up, encouraged, and set back on the track to success and recovery/rehab.
i feel that for the past 3 month i've been "stalled out."
stuck in that 5th gear when i know i could go to 6. well, i feel my old self reemerging. although it may be a little late to do as well as i had anticipated....we are still far from over.

keep training hard and god bless.
-The Pizza Boy

We are still far
We are still far
We are still far
from over