Phase I

i'm sorry.

i feel as over time i may have let a lot, if not all of you down. maybe it's been the recent days, weeks, or a month. but i know at some point i did. but most importantly i let myself down. i compromised who i am, let go of my mind and values. i let emotion get the best of me. it has been too much, and gone too far for too long.

please know i took a leave of absence from CFEP. as much as i've been told i'll be missed, or that it's my "home" i feel like a complete stranger at times. i can take the blame, perhaps some of it has been self-inflicted. but no one truly knows the whole truth, maybe no one will ever will. people just assume, but no one asks questions. i've heard things, yet no one says anything. and that's their choice.

decisions were made, and i felt they made my current situation worse. instead of progressing, i began to regress.

please i ask that you consider where i'm coming from, it may not make sense to anyone but i feel it will be the best for the long run. it may take a day, a week, or a month. just know i deemed that this decision was absolutely necessary for myself and my health. i wish things could go back the way they used to be, maybe they will, most likely they won't.

i've been replaced.

although i feel many of the things i love have been consumed, crossfit is something i really value, i truly have a passion for it, and will pursue. it may be at a globo gym, my garage, or perhaps i can wod with friends i've made at other gyms from time to time. just know i will not be coaching anywhere else, i will remain faithful.

Phase I begins now. 3.7.11.

i can only hope that the friendships, laughs, smiles, and relationships i made were real, that someday i will be forgiven, and that i will be welcomed back with open arms.

best of luck to you all, and hopefully, i'll be back soon.

take care and god bless.